TABLEAUX
As the moon, the sun, and the stars never stay
I look back on the days, my mind in a haze
Playgrounds, schools, cities, chateaus
New adventures, new people– friends or faux
From Italy to Austria– around mountains, through plains
Backgammon and card games on sleepover trains
Always got the top bunk of the little couchette
My childhood a happy Russian roulette
Alone, she raised me. Together– a team
No stones we couldn’t weather, now it all seems a dream
She taught me every thing that I know
Paving and painting, our living tableaus
Listening to Paul Simon in a two-door Renault
She took me to visit the storybook chateaus,
Through the Bois de Boulogne and past Fontaine Bleau.
We went to the homes of Cezanne and Van Gogh
In Florence, New York. Arizona, or France
She always found places for me to dance
But in time she put to rest our traveling roulette
For me to study from the best in song and pirouettes
Alone, she raised me. Together– a team
No stones we couldn’t weather, now it all seems a dream
She taught me every thing that I know
Paving and painting, our living tableaus
Time rolls along, my thoughts lost at sea
Why can’t I, be as strong as she?
Where is the strength she instilled in me?
Can’t summon the want and the will to be free
As the moon, the sun, and the stars never stay
I go through the days, my mind in a haze
Gone is my mother; my thoughts scattered debris
Can’t ever give her what she gave to me
Alone, she raised me. Together– a team
No stones we couldn’t weather: now it all seems a dream
She taught me every thing that I know
Paving and painting, our living tableaus
Paving and painting, our living tableaus
WHEN I GET HOME
Bruised from the battle
We couldn’t win
Wanted the answers
To come from within
Call and ask me
What can I do?
When walking in silence
Is what gets us through
We have lost our way…
Sometimes things can’t be saved
And you just want to walk away
Don’t try fixing things you cannot change
Just be the one when I get home today
Know it scares you
When you don’t have control
You’re damned if you try to
Fill a black hole
Remember the first time
You never let go
You told me you loved me
But you didn’t have to say so
We have lost our way
Sometimes things can’t be saved
And you don’t want to walk away
Don’t try fixing things you cannot change
Just be the one when I get home today
We could say goodbye
And go on just pretending to be strong
But I look into your eyes
And know I couldn’t keep it up for long
cause…
Sometimes things can’t be saved
And you just want to walk away
Don’t try fixing things you cannot change
Just be the one when I get home today
Dont try fixing things you cannot change
Just be the one when I get home today
DARK SIDE OF THE BRIGHT SIDE
All depends how you see the world
On your point of view
All depends on the path you take
An what you’ve been through
I try to be happy
And sometimes I succeed
Too many fairytales
I just can’t believe
That’s why you’ll find me.. on the..
Dark side of the bright side
Major
Minor
An eclipse of the moonlight
Blacker
Whiter
But leaving me blue
You keep seeing the glass half-full
But mine’s half- empty
Seems like I don’t appreciate
What’s right in front of me
I’m just trying to write a song
That doesn’t bring you down
I’ve been smiling at everyone
But I can’t pretend
So here I am again…on the…
Dark side of the bright side
Major
Minor
An eclipse of the moonlight
Blacker
Whiter
But leaving me blue
I’m on the…
Dark side of the bright side
Major
Minor
An eclipse of the moonlight
Blacker
Whiter
But leaving me blue
CAMOUFLAGE
Alone again, why am I alone again?
Wondering how I could be so mistaken
Let me down, left in the lost and found
Who’s to blame? Only my expectations
Somehow I was misled
By the conjured thoughts in my head
It couldn’t be, I couldn’t see
See through the camouflage
Trying to heal what wasn’t real
It was all camouflage
It was all camouflage
Emptiness, nothing but emptiness
Nothing left, to fill this void inside me
Sleepless nights, one-0-three fahrenheit
Wishing you, were laying here right beside me
What should have been wonderful
Just made me feel vulnerable
It couldn’t be, I couldn’t see
See through the camouflage
Trying to heal what wasn’t real
Really just camouflage
But was it all camouflage
Long walks on the beach at night, by the moon
Roses everyday
Red wine by candlelight
All the old clichés
It couldn’t be, I couldn’t see
See through the camouflage
Trying to heal what wasn’t real
Really just camouflage
It was all camouflage….
THROUGH YOUR EYES
I saw the plans you laid
Slept in the bed you made
I saw it all through your eyes
There was no doubt you cared
No expense was spared
I saw it all through your eyes
Caught in the lights
Lost in the sound
Always afraid I would let you down
Down on my hands and knees
Driven to succeed
Succeed in your eyes
An angel dressed in white
I had the perfect life
The perfect life through your eyes
But I woke up today
I’ve been running away
I’ve been playing a part I can no longer play
Caught in the lights
Lost in the sounds
Left like a broken doll on the ground
I would feel no pain
Wrapped in your velvet chains
If I lived my life through your eyes
There was no room for me
Now in the end I see
I can’t live my life through your eyes
I can’t live my life through your eyes…
UNSCRIPTED
Just don’t see myself as a nine-to-fiver
Tell you the truth, I’ve got no use
For your pillows to brave my falls
No expectations at all
I want to live my life unscripted
Don’t want to spoil the suspense
The whole world can change
With the turn of a page
And I don’t want to know how it ends
You think you see clearly, but it’s dark at the foot of the lighthouse
Worry about keeping me safe, but you’re the one who’s afraid
You want me to stay
But surely you don’t want to see me
Wrattling the bars of my cage
I want to live my life unscripted
Don’t want to spoil the suspense
The whole world can change
With the turn of a page
And I don’t want to know how it ends
Destination unknown
I’ll be ok on my own
I’ve got no use for your pillows to brave my falls
No expectations at all
Want to live my life unscripted
Don’t want to spoil the suspense
The whole world can change
With the turn of a page
And I don’t want to know how it ends
I don’t want to know how it ends…
